How My Children and Subconscious Reprogramming Saved My Life and Changed My Future

So many people ask me, “What changed it for you? How did your WHY become so big and powerful?”

It’s because I’ve been to hell and back. I’ve faced unbearable pain, paralysing fear, the brink of death, and the crushing weight of hopelessness. But I fought my way out. And now, my mission is so much bigger than just me.

Fifteen years ago, I felt completely lost.

I was convinced I wasn’t good enough. I believed I had no value.

As a qualified accountant and computer programmer, I used to hide behind numbers, data, and logic—anything that allowed me to avoid facing my true self. I immersed myself in computer programming, solving external problems rather than addressing the deeper, emotional struggles I was facing within. It was a way to stay hidden, to focus on something tangible and safe, rather than stepping into the work I do now—transformative subconscious programming, which helps people heal and unlock their true potential.

Speaking up? It terrified me. I was trapped by my own fears, unable to even imagine stepping into my true calling.

My personal hell felt all too familiar—just like it is for so many others.

Then, everything came crashing down.

My body gave up. I became bedridden, completely inflamed from head to toe. My head ached relentlessly for days—24 hours a day, for over two weeks. The pain was unbearable. I couldn’t sleep, and doctors had no answers.

But the worst pain wasn’t physical. It was deep in my soul. I was exhausted—emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. I felt like the weight of the world was suffocating me.

I had tried everything—therapies, positive thinking, self-help books & workshops, breathwork, medication, medittaion energy work—but nothing made a difference.

I made a decision: I was ready to end everything. And for the first time in a long time, I felt at peace with my choice. I believed my children would be better off without me. I couldn’t bear the struggle, the darkness, the constant panic attacks, and the relentless fear anymore.

But then…

In the depths of my despair, my two babies—just 5 and 6 years old—ran into the room. They had just woken up, their little faces soft with sleep, eyes sparkling with excitement.

Completely unaware of the storm raging inside me, they smiled and asked:

“Mummy, mummy, are you well enough to play with us today?”

They were so full of hope, believing that I was better. But I was already gone, a hollow shell lying in that dark room.

I’ll never forget that moment. It’s seared into my heart like a scar.

How could I play with them?

I could barely move. I couldn’t even make it to the bathroom, let alone play with my beautiful children.

All the sacrifices I had made… the long hours, the endless stress, telling myself “just one more day, just push through”. And now, I couldn’t even play with my own kids.

So I told them, with a heavy heart:

“Mummy isn’t well enough to play with you today.”

I’ll never forget the look on their faces.

The excitement drained. The light in their eyes flickered out. Their joy was replaced with confusion and sadness. Their little spirits dimmed right in front of me.

Because of me.

In that moment, their hearts broke… and so did mine.

Something inside me died, too. The version of me that had spent years hiding, running from her calling—she died that day.

And as I lay there, I realised: I had allowed my own fears, my own pain, to steal the joy from my children. I had let it get this far.

That was the moment everything changed.

If I gave up, if I let fear win, what would happen to them? I couldn’t let their light be extinguished the way mine had been when my own mother abandoned me at just 10 months old.

I broke down in tears, deeper than I ever had before.

And I prayed. I prayed for the strength to get through this. I prayed for guidance, for a way out.

I made a vow.

I would find a way back.

And once I did, I would help others end their sleepless nights, stop their panic attacks, heal their traumas, and step into the lives they deserve in minutes, not years.

It took years of research, training, and deep inner work, but I kept that promise.

I discovered the power of subconscious reprogramming—a way to release the pain, the fear, the trauma that had been holding me back. This process didn’t just save me—it gave me my life back.

Today, my mission is to help others reclaim their lives, too.

Imagine waking up without dread, without panic gripping your chest. Imagine finally sleeping peacefully through the night, free from the nightmares of your past. Imagine being able to show up fully for your children, your partner, your work, without fear suffocating you.

That’s why I’m here—to help people just like you break free from the cycles of pain and fear.

I’ve already helped thousands of people heal their deepest wounds, take their careers and businesses to the next level, and build a life they never thought possible.

Clients who were once stuck, paralysed by fear, are now thriving. Some have gone from barely making ends meet to running six-even seven-figure businesses. Others have repaired broken relationships and found peace within themselves.

Just the other day, a client of mine moved from feeling 50% in control of her life to 90%—in one session. For the first time, she felt truly alive. She realised her worth. She started making decisions for herself—without guilt, without fear.

If you’ve felt something stir within you as you read this… maybe this is the sign you’ve been waiting for.

I created my 1:1 Deep Dive Transformation programme and my Subconscious Programming Certification for people just like you—people ready to break free, to heal, to take their businesses, careers, and lives to levels they never dreamed of.

Whether you’re struggling to find peace, to step into your power, or to finally grow your business, I am here to help you.

I have done all the hard work, so you don’t have to.

Book a discovery call with me today, and let’s talk about how we can work together to achieve real, tangible results—whether it’s breaking through emotional barriers or scaling your business to six figures and beyond.

The life you deserve is waiting for you. Let’s make it a reality.